The thing is.. I don’t want fun. I don’t want games. I don’t want a fling or to be the other girl. I want to be a top priority, the one and only. I want to be loved by someone, not infatuated by someone.. I just want something real.. ❤ MHC
Maybe one day I’ll find that guy for me.. A Prince Charming to sweep me off my feet and love me unconditionally. Maybe he will understand me, forwards and backwards.. Maybe he will have the same way of thinking as me.. Maybe I already met him.. Maybe I’ve messed everything up, including my chance to ever find happiness in my love life. I guess only the stars know.. (:
The loneliness has set in.. I miss being able to tell someone all of my thoughts and feelings.. I now am pushing everyone away.. I can’t take this stress anymore.. In 8 days, I’ll have a house.. Great, something to distract me from myself. Lately, I’ve been spending my free time alone. Yes, I still socialize but not like before. I can’t wait to have a stable place that I can call my own and where i can just breathe.. It’s hard to find the words to say to even talk. I can’t even count how many times I’ve wrote long texts and didn’t have the guts to send them.. It would be so much easier if they’d text me first.. Just to show that all those words of caring and love just a couple weeks ago, hasn’t disappeared.. I guess time is my only partner now.. But is it even on my side? I guess we will find out..