I have realized that I have no idea what I want in life anymore. I have no idea how to move on from where I am right now. I have no clue how to fix myself up and regain confidence in myself. I don’t know what to think about the past two years of my life.. I don’t know what I want anymore. I’m just stuck here. I don’t know how to get rid of this aching hurt or at least lessen it.. I’m completely lost; I’m drowning in the water and I’ve forgotten how to swim.. And what scares me the most is that I’ve lost all reason to swim. I’ve lost my drive, my desire for everything. I’ve lost myself in all this rubble.. and it feels as though the searchers have given up..