Am I the only who questions, everything & everyone?

Am I the only one who has certain days that I only want to do certain things. Is it just me to want a nice cold bite of ice cream in this three below weather. Does anyone else have times where they just want to bake to get their mind off of things. Who else has cravings for something as soon as they know its unavailable or they cannot have it anymore. Am I the only one who thinks about death on a regular basis and allow my thoughts to scare me to pieces. Its it just me who can’t stand watching the news anymore. Does anyone else feel as though a child’s innocence is taken away to early. Who else stands still in the shower for ten to thirty minutes just feeling the hot water on them. Am I the only one who sometimes doesn’t feel alive, just going through the motions. Is it just me who wants to help save other’s lives, like music saved mine. Does anyone else absolutely cannot stand those Africa or those sad pet commercials, because they make you cry. Who else can eat, run, cry, and sleep their feelings all in one day. Am I the only one who wants to do more than one thing my whole life. Is it just me to want something different, and not keep to a routine. Does anyone think that there’s life out there and things beyond our imagination in another world. Who else has a crazy imagination and comes up with insane scenarios, everyday. Am I the only one who questions everything, everyone? Is it just me to want everyone to be on one, single side. Does anyone else listen to anyone else anymore? Who else feels as though all of our rights are being taken away? Am I the only one that listens to the silence? Is it just me to see that a lot of things are falling apart? Does anyone else even care to bring an end to what our world is becoming? Who else is ashamed of our world?

Miserable at best

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It has been weeks and this is all I’ve seen out my window.. It hasn’t been 5 degrees above freezing since last year, and a lot of negatives! Now we are being threatened by the weather channel of a bigger winter storm next week! I’m so over this snow and cold weather. This global warming is awful; and we are suffering ourselves. -MHC

Kissing In Cars

There is so much I want in my life. So many different things to be exact. I don’t want to be a generic hairdresser/nail tech. I want more. I want to do so many things before my time is up on this earth. I want to help people get through things. Get through hard places in their lives and live a brighter life. I want ever teenager who thinks so badly about themselves and hate their lives to feel beautiful and great. I want to save them from themselves.  As a teenager, I was in the dark. Think god I turned to music to help pull me out. It makes me want to pull me hair out whenever I think about this. I want to be more than this. I want to be someone to look up to, to relate to, and to turn to when needed. I guess I just want to be needed. Truly needed. -MHC

Title by: Pierce the Veil

26 Confessions

Daily Post: twenty-six

Twenty-six confessions about me (:

1. I’m awful at keeping routines.
2. I like exercising, but again, I cant make a routine of it.
3. Purple is my favorite color.
4. I don’t get easily bored, but I get bored with my life.
5. I’ve been trying to lose weight, but its been really hard and I always bounce back up.
6. Peanut butter and chocolate are my favorites.
7. I love green and black tea.
8. My boyfriend and I have been together since June 21, 2012<3
9. I'm in need of a second job. Taking a CNA class in March.
10. I don't talk to anyone from high school, except a couple cosmetology girls I graduated with.
11. I truly believe that the organization, TWLOHA, is the most amazing thing in the world, and it saved my life.
12. I think I want to adopt children instead of having them, because if lose this weight and get the body I want, no one is going to ruin it! (:
13. I don't eat out. Ever. I strictly haven't since June 2013, and I don't miss it. I could go on a rant about why, but I wont.
14. Sarah Dessen is my favorite author of all times, but Nicholas Sparks has my heart.
15. I like dark poetry.
16. Thinking about death scares me to no end.
17. My situation is tough right now because my boyfriend is trying to gain muscle why I'm trying to lose weight. So he eats a lot more and bad things, like frozen pizza, while I try to stay away form the junk, but its so hard.
18. I enjoy bicycling.
19. I wish I was more in control of my life..
20. Cosmetology is the best thing that has ever happened to me.
21. I like fruits more than any other food group.
22. Paramore is my all time favorite band, but Phillip Phillips has stolen my heart and soul with his songs.
23. If my boyfriend and I where to break up, my life would be turned upside, flipped around, and shook up. Everything would have to change.
24. I have never been able to trust anyone like I do him.
25. I sing very loudly in my car on my 7 minute drive to work every morning.
26. All I want in life is to change someone for the good, stop them from doing something bad or just make them happier with themselves.